Monday, September 29, 2008

Struggling with Scriptures

In 1Samuel chapter 15, verses 2 & 3 we read about our Holy God who gave the command, “Thou shall not kill” telling Saul to kill women, children and infants!!

This is what the LORD Almighty says: 'I will punish the Amalekites for what they did to Israel when they waylaid them as they came up from Egypt. Now go, attack the Amalekites and totally destroy everything that belongs to them. Do not spare them; put to death men and women, children and infants, cattle and sheep, camels and donkeys.' (NIV)

The preacher’s two explanations: (1) the focus of this passage is on obedience (verses 22, 23) and not killing of people, (2) God is sovereign and not to be questioned, is similar to our parent’s reason of “just obey my words, this is for your own good”. Like an inquisitive child, these answers alienate my understanding of a loving God further and contradict what I am told that Christianity is a reasonable faith - a faith in God that can be reasoned, not blind faith (i.e. just believe) like other religions. While I am convicted and encouraged of God’s sovereignty through the preacher’s testimony of how God performed a “miracle” to bring him back to Singapore for his church’s anniversary, yet the question remains unsolved – “why did God want to kill innocent infants?”

I once read a Buddhist critics, sent to me by sister Wei Lin, that Christianity is a cruel faith where you read of God being a warrior and killing innocent people in the Bible while Buddhism is truly benevolence with absolute no killing of all living things. 1Sam 15:2&3 would surely serve to justify his argument if we can’t find any explanation within our understanding of Christian theology, however good this passage is being preached.

Before you read further, which is only a handful of you, let me honestly say that I am not attacking the preacher or any church leaders with this blog. My writing is a reflection, journal and struggle of my walk and faith in God. IT IS MY PERSONAL ENCOUNTER WITH GOD. However, I think some of you may face the same struggle (or just curious) and so you choose to read what I write. Others will ignore this blog. Journaling helps me to be honest with God and transparent to people. I need not wear a “mask” to church. What you read is what I am thinking (but not all things. There are so many thoughts and I write down the strongest thought that convicts me.) Also, I am learning and do correct me if my thoughts are somewhat off skew, just like a concern sister-in-Christ who sometime ago sent me an email to caution me about my thoughts on pastor. Thank you.

My finite mind will always struggle with my infinite God and His Word


TO BE CONTINUED …. (will be back, after much thinking & struggling)

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Giving teaches me compassion

Recently, I read and prayed with tears from a letter from Gospel Mission To the Blind Ltd, a Christian charity organization. This organization reaches out in love and compassion to the blinds, encouraging them and helping them to find new meaning in lives and most importantly, eternal lives. Sister Cheng Choo, blind herself and a graduate from Singapore Bible College, has been instrumentally running the organization. Her monthly letters to all donors have always touched my heart and teaches me compassion. Here is an excerpt of the letter:

Life and sight are very precious and wonderful gifts from God. Our hearts ache whenever we know of some one losing their sight. Please pray for Chua Bin Lay, our new contact, a pre-believer, who was also told that she is suffering from cancer, and at the 4th stage.

One of our youths, Amanda Chong, was suffering from cornea problem and had undergone several eye surgeries. However, her vision was getting very blur in spite of those surgeries.

In March this year, her doctor found a suitable cornea for her, and with much fear and anxiety, she had the transplant of a cornea done. The surgery seemed successful, and she was enjoying clearer vision in one eye for a while. However, in mid July 08 when the stitches were supposed to be removed, her eye doctor found foreign bodies in the eye, and he was fighting very hard to prevent a rejection of the cornea. Amanda was put on steroid. She became very depressed and fearful that her body would reject the transplanted cornea when the doctor said that there was not much improvement when she went for her check up after about 12 days. Her mother sent us SMS requesting that we encourage her. Instead of just encouraging/counseling her, we also prayed with her over the phone. In early August she came for Bible study, and we laid hands on her and prayed with her. During subsequent check ups, her doctor told her that there was a 60% improvement, and reduced the dosage of the steroid.

Amanda is now very happy, and would appreciate it if we can continue to uphold her in prayers, so that she can receive divine healing and see with perfect vision, not just in the eye that has the transplanted cornea, but in the other eye as well.


There was a time when I also learnt compassion through giving, from the homeless in London. It was 1993 - 94. In one cold winter evening while walking home from my University, I saw this homeless squatting and shivering at the corner of a street. Looking up, our faces met. His agonized face instantly triggered me to dip into my pocket for a British Pound and flung it to him. A transformation took place and I saw a jubilant and smiling face. In those days, one could get a good meal of fish and chips with a pound and a half from a subsidized nursing home’s canteen nearby. Since then, I would sometime walked the streets of London, with a pocket full of coins, though I always gave intelligently and gracefully. On another occasion in Chinatown, a haggard and worn-out woman with a baby in arm came out to me, “Spare a change, please.” I asked her many questions to ascertain her need, and after I gave her some money asked why she chose to approach me. Apparently, before she begged from someone, she would look into their faces, hoping to see a compassionate face for a better chance of success and bigger change. As a scholar from British Council and with a monthly salary and allowances from NTU for my studies in London, giving away a few coins on many occasions meant nothing to me. But the value of compassion and kindness will always serve as a fond memory of my stay in LONDON.

He who is kind to the poor lends to the LORD ... (Prov 19:17)

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

How friendly am I?

Sunday, 21 Sept, 10:45am;
Me: “What do you think about our church worship today?”
Masio: “Oh, it’s very good. I know the song, Jesus, Lamb of God, (give the Malay version of this song), we sing it in our church in Sabah.”

Friday, 19 Sept, 9:15pm;
I was taking my daily prayer walk around the quiet Pasir Ris Drive 3, a time for quiet reflection and talking. Friday night is always a consoling welcome for rest after a fatigue week. “What is God doing in Bethany?” I asked, as I remembered about Experiencing God – God is always at work. The word – MASIO flash through my mind-eye. Oh, I have forgotten about Masio, the visitor who came on the 24 August Sunday worship. I found it hard to pronounce his name and he wrote it down on a piece of paper. He is a Christian, working as a cleaner in Geylang. He was looking for a church and came to Bethany PC on that Saturday afternoon. For the last two Sunday, I didn’t catch up with him and has totally forgotten about him. OK, I need to talk to him this Sunday. Strange, I have never been prompted like this before.

Sunday, 21 Sept, 2:50pm, inside SBS Bus 53
Sitting in the bus on my way home after the Be-friender meeting, I kept drifting to the conversation with Masio this morning. He is no ordinary visitor. He talked about the importance of worshipping God, “If I die tomorrow, I am ready to go. The Bible say, the 666 is coming soon. At that time, those without the mark cannot buy food. … If I don’t come to church, no use joining my friends to drink and get drunk, no good.”

Here is a man, away from his home and his church. Yet, he took the effort to seek the LORD instead of joining his housemates of 15; about 5 of them are Christians, in worldly pleasure. He is looking for Christian friends. It reminded me of my days in London alone, searching for a church and for Christian friends, … that sojourner feeling. Yep, God always has a special concern for orphans, widows and sojourners. (Sorry for getting too emotional each time I think of London. It always is a special place in my life).

We need to make friend to foreigners like Masio, a blue-collar worker as a cleaner in a hotel in Geylang. More so, I am encouraged by this brother-in-Christ. This may be the first place to start creating an environment for spiritual growth and reproduction - be a friendly church to foreigners & sojourners!


Mark Lim
23 Sept

Friday, September 19, 2008

Create an environment for Spiritual Growth & Reproduction

As I listened to the Prime Minister’s National Day message concerning Singapore pro-creation policy, many thoughts crossed my mind about why people choose to remain childless and Christians cease in spiritual reproduction as well. Political leaders and Christian leaders are both concern about raising the right kind of leadership and population growth. I shall share my experience on raising leadership some other time.

Singaporeans are busy people, those of us who have traveled or stay aboard will agree. We are busy with our career to the extent of neglecting our social lives and are not ready for marriage. Then there is another group who is married but for personal reasons, chooses to remain single. Parenting is a burden and a hindrance to their career path and freedom (to travel, leisure, etc). This is a sign of immature thinking. The third group chooses to remain childless are usually because of health reason.

As Christians, we too need to ask ourselves honestly why we are not reproducing. Witnessing, evangelism, reaching out to others for Christ, are hard work. If we are not clear of our faith, it can be a burden and hindrance to our comfort zone, a sign of spiritual immaturity. Reproduction is God’s way of creation – “Be fruitful & multiply”. All living things (plants, animals, organism and humans) reproduce as they mature. Then there is another group of Christians, who are not spiritually healthy. These are the one who will give up their faith at a sign of crisis or trials. We are busy Christians with our job, family, church and leave little time to make a conscious effort to reach out to our friends and colleagues. We often use the word “fear” to describe our feelings. For the older ones, we may be now “spiritual menopause” Christians.

Thank God, for this year, we started building a “women court”- a ministry for the ladies in our church, after 3 years of voicing this out in the committee. I have received some encouraging feedback from visitor. Although it is important to build up our “Holy place” and the “Holy of Holies” – worship ministry, as a church, we need to continuously enlarge our “Gentile court”, creating an environment where we feel at ease to invite friends into our midst. Are our Share Groups “non-Christian friendly”? Are our ministries meeting the needs of the community? The Church exists for the world, because Christ came for the world (John 3:16). What ministry or projects will meet these needs? A discipleship/evangelistic environment is one where the norm is to share our lives, how we live in the awareness that God is with us, with one another – to Christians by our encounter with God, to non-Christians by our testimony and Gospel. My first 3 years as a Christian was in such a discipleship environment. It was where sharing daily devotions, loving and caring for one another was the norm for a Christian community. This naturally led to witnessing for Christ. Maybe, we were young then, and also homogenous, we were all students. Can a church create such an environment? Yes, but it is difficult as we are busy Christians. I have thought of many possibilities. It is not just about providing a training evangelism program. You may want to think about it also.

We need to raise up Christians with a mindset of spiritual growth. But it can never be an individual effort. We must create an environment such that it is a norm to grow & reproduce. People must see that not to grow and bear fruit is abnormal. We have not created such an environment yet.

Let us be like a good Jew, who is taught to do 3 things in his lifetime – Write a book, plant a tree, raise a child. For me, a Christian - write my thoughts, bear spiritual fruit, raise a spiritual child.

Mark Lim

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

To motivate, Bring out their best, not their weakness

During our monthly prayer meeting, one sister asked me to sing solo when I would lead the next prayer meeting. I turned her down and saying that I hated being asked to do something in public what I am weak in. She disagreed with me that saying that it is all right.

Flashback, year 1974, I was just starting Secondary 3. My Form teacher, Mr Ling Ding Ing who taught us English was concerned of our English & Grammar. I was perhaps one of the weakest in class. As long as I can remember, on most occasions, during our English class comprehension, he would call me to answer questions in the passages. Most of the time, I got the wrong answer and was very embarrassed in class. Needless to say, I hate English and it was the only subject that I failed for my O Level.

In that same year, we started learning Additional Math. After the first 4 weeks and completing on the topic Indices & Logarithms, my Math teacher, Mr CC Chen, asked each student to solved questions on the board. I remember there was one very hard question that almost no students could get it right. Maybe Mr CCC saw my eager face and finally called me to the board. When I produced the right solution, almost the whole class breathed out a sigh, “Wah!” I instantly grew one foot taller at the moment. After that incident, others class students also heard about me and some even asked me for help along the school corridor. Since then, I grew to love Maths and hate English. For Secondary 3 & 4 I was topped in A Math, and Secondary 4 in E Math. Till this day, I can still clearly remember the names and the faces of these 2 teachers, they changed my life.

Mark Lim Teng Lye
16 Sept 2008

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

A Mission Field near Bethany Church

The "hornet nest" is being stirred when news have it that the old Serangoon Garden Technical School in Serangoon North Ave 1 is going to be converted to a Foreign Workers Dormitory. Many of the resident voiced against such a proposal, claiming security of their women and girls; drop in property prices, road congestion and many uncalled for behaviour of the foreigners. Singaporeans do has split behaviors - we despised foreign workers who are blue-collars and who hold lowly paid jobs like construction workers, cleaners and maids while accept easily the white- collars foreign professional and expatriates. This may be due to the unruly behavior of the foreign workers while the foreign professional and expatriate are are deem better behaved. However, we do forget about the Michael Fayes incident and other cases involving foreign professional.

When I first read the news, my thought was, "Wow! God is bringing a mission field nearer to Bethany Church." These lowly foreign workers are from Thailand, India, Mynmar, etc. Many of these would need friends, and maybe languages lesson. While Bethany usually spend one week a year for oversea mission trip to Thailand or Yunnan, here the mission field is being brought to our door step and we can reach out to them without facing the discomfort of toilets with maggots and muddy roads. If we are serious of mission to Cambodia, Thailand, or Yunnan, we should first prepare ourselves for mission trips by reaching to these "mission fields" in Singapore. As Simon Lim is teaching English to the Cambodians, we too can teach English to the Thais or Mynmar workers and learn their languages as we teach them. The only different is Simon is teaching children while we may have to teach adults. Any not many are willing to teach adults (?)

Of course, are we willing to give the time and energy? Oversea mission trips - as missionaries sound exciting and lasted just one or two weeks. Local mission trips are less glamorous and more tedious. It is not just one week, but maybe months and years. Would our oversea missionary trippers willing to start our local mission work? Would those having a call to go oversea consider this local mission field as a training and preparation for them to help them feel whether they can see "that the harvest is plentiful but the laborers are few"? Before we jump into the Cambodia, Thailand and Yunnan mission works, are we willing to also move into a closer mission field back home?

(Some of us might still be asking: "Mark, what are you talking about, these foreigners are just foreign workers, not people we want to witness to. Those in Cambodia or Yunnan, are the one we want to witness to. It is the place, not the people we are talking about".

Mark: "Yah, for me, it is the people not the place I am talking about. In God's perspective, it is not place but people. People is the most important of all God's creation.")

Acts 1:8 - When the Holy Spirit has come upon you, you shall be my witnesses in Jerusalem, in Judea, and Samaria and to the end of the earth.

Mark Lim

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Friday Prayer Meeting

This is the first time Sister Siew Poh joined our first Friday of the month prayer meeting. It is nice to hear her talk about her volunteering work at Singapore Anti-Narcotite Association (SANA) and some of her health problem. In prayer meeting, we get to know more of the people in our group and so understand each other better. But usually, the turn out is very low. Those who come are the one who see the need to give and just be part of the group. Everyone is given the opportunity to speak and so it is good to hear from one another. We may not spend much time in prayer but more in knowing the lives of others.

Which bring me to my point of writing this blog. As christians we need to talk about our life, and how God is working in our lives, or sometime, fail to see how God is working in our lives. Either way is good, the knowledge of God working in our lives help us to experience His presence and join Him in whatever He calls or guides. Also, the failure to see how God is working in my lives, will help me to be sensitive to Him and learn to sense His presence. The worse is to be apathy to Him.

As a body of Christ, I am trying to inculate this aspect of Christian living - sharing with one another how we can see our lives in God's perspective - by email on SHARE-A-THOUGHT, DEVOTION, REFLECTION, and reading articles. Hopefully, others will learn to draw near to God through all these and not feel that I am intruding into their spaces.

I hope Sister Siew Poh will continue to share her lives with others which can encourage others to shares their also.


Mark Lim
8 Sept 2008