Be broken – A fragrance of Christ

Friday 18/5/12 6:25 am

“blonk!” The bottle of 100ml perfume slipped and spilled all over the floor. How careless of me to drop it, even though it cost me only S$2.90. The whole toilet smelled good, but I smelled bad inside me :( As I picked up the broken glasses, I carelessly cut my right thumb! Cleaning up and bandage myself took away the time for my short early devotion.

So my reflection and meditation as I drove the girls to school was on brokenness. “I break, and I cut myself.” In my quietness, I felt the Holy Spirit prompting - To be an aroma and fragrance of Christ, I need to be broken. What an irony. Who want to be broken? It is painful. Yeah, I hurt myself you know, LORD! The last 3 weeks was good, the Presence of God is real. Since the David & Greta Peters’ seminar, I have encountered the filling of the Holy Spirit. It’s amazing to truly understand how to Walk in the Spirit. Now, it seems that God is telling me to move to being brokenness. I am afraid … and the pain of my  right thumb lingers …

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Friday 18/5/12 8:05 pm

Should I attend the leaders’ prayer meeting? It’s for leaders and core servants, not for me lah. Perhaps I can learn something? Well, might as well just go and see since I am new to this church.

Interesting, they allowed time for leaders who felt a word from the LORD to stand up and share. A sister stood up and felt God wanting her to tell all who were present to be broken! We need to (1) Allow God to Break in; (2) Be Break through in our life; (3) Enjoy a Break dance like King David (2Sam 6).

A mere coincidence that I choose to come and here is what I heard? Isn’t that what God is showing me in the morning and kept me thinking about it all day? And yet at night, when I think I want to hear and see something different, it is still the same message even though I am not suppose to be there. It’s for leaders and core servants of the LORD.

¹⁵ For we are a fragrance of Christ to God among those who are being saved and among those who are perishing; ¹⁶  to the one an aroma from death to death, to the other an aroma from life to life. And who is adequate for these things? (2 Cor 2:15-16 NASB)

Amazing how the Spirit leads.

Agape

What happen after “zapped” by the Holy Spirit?

Two Sunday ago, I got “zapped” by the Holy Spirit!


Nope, I am not going to discuss how it happened or why it happened. Or even is it biblical? This is always the contention between the reformed and the charismatic churches. I leave that to you to figure it out, or to take your side.

So what happened to me after that?

Well, ever since (even till today), there is always a song ringing in me, humming inside me. It’s weird for me as I am not a “song” person. I don’t think this happen to others, but I guess, I need to learn to sing more songs from now on. Then yesterday as I was reading Psalms 42,

I come across this verse (eight):

By day the LORD directs his love,
at night his song is with me—
a prayer to the God of my life.

Perhaps, that song inside me is a continuous prayer for me?

Those who know me would know that my job is always stressful. I deal with technical problems. If there is no problem, I make problems because I develop products and during the development phase, I always see problems. Living in this kind of work-life, it is difficult to have real peace inside me. NOW, I see things very differently. The PEACE of Christ is inside me even when unpleasant things happen. I could feel it because coming to work take on a new perspective. The word “never-mind” becomes my familiar phase.

When face with obstacle, it’s always, “what is HE teaching me?” It’s so easy to give praises and thanksgiving. Complaining and grumbling no longer exist.

The greatest transformation is the sensitivity to impure thoughts and unwholesome talks. You know it is coming and nip it in the bud before it appears in the mind or blurt out in the mouth. The presence of the LORD is always there throughout the day.


It is like Colossians 3:15-17 becomes real and alive in me:

15 Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful. 16 Let the message of Christ dwell among you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom through psalms, hymns, and songs from the Spirit, singing to God with gratitude in your hearts. 17 And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.

Wonder how long this situation will last?

Agape